scared to feel it

A couple of weeks ago, I remembered a moment I hadn’t thought about for a long time. It was 1986. I was sitting in the front row of a stifling hot crematorium chapel on an unusually warm and bright September day. I was watching my sister’s body, inside a pale wooden...

scared to receive

My time at the house on the rock is almost done. My six month lease finishes in two weeks and I’ve decided not to renew. It feels like the work I needed to do in this house is finished and it’s time to move a little closer to the world. So in the past few weeks, I’ve...

alchemy and illumination

After a few years out of the world of work, I’m stepping back in. I’ve transformed myself physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually. My most recent posts chronicle some of my journey back to vitality. Now I’m ready to start sharing what I’ve learned so far....

scared to stay

If you’ve been here before, you’ll know I’ve been working with grief for a few months now. I’ve dived into deeply personal grief involving the loss of people I’ve loved, as well as less personal and more collective (although still extremely strong) grief...

scared to feel ashamed

I’ve always had a tricky relationship with politics, simultaneously fascinated and repelled by it. My earliest political memory is of Gough Whitlam standing on the steps of Parliament House, roaring for the crowd and the TV cameras after his government was summarily,...

scared to let go

Well… that was intense. I don’t really want to write about it, because it’s kind of embarrassing. But I’m going to, because She wants me to talk about what She’s taught me recently. And because admitting publicly that I don’t always have my shit completely...